...I can only imagine. Just know that it's ok to feel how you feel--you prolly just need time to process it, and there's nothing wrong with that. When Liz's sister died, I felt terrible for her but it didn't really mess me up too bad personally. I felt oddly removed from the situation, and deeply uncomfortable with my lack of emotion. Later, I was able to process it better--at first it just didn't seem real.

Just be grateful for your brothers--appreciate your family. Go and give them huggies.

(In other, unrelated news--I got your message. Sushi sometime sounds great. I don't have my schedule for next week yet, but I should have a couple of days off. I will have money then to go ;)