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I believe I forgot to update things yesterday. Specially since an odd thing happened.
Odd thing one (is not so odd) I woke up with out the aid of an alarm and started to get ready for school when i realised. I DIDN'T HAVE SCHOOL.
Odd thing two: I think I'm getting the hang of using the computer to colorize piccies! YAY ME!
Odd thing three: Met the hawk that's been hanging around where I live on the paper route during butt-farking cold weather. I saw it, it saw me and just kind of stood there for a few moments, a feshly caught bird stillin it's talons. Then it flew off, not at all phased by me, right into the spruces near my house. after that I lost sight of it.
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End of stuff from yesterday
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Today's issues
I got an even better grasp on how to use the computer to colorize my pics through experimetning. yay.
I did a lot of fun piccies.
Just now mom came down to bug me about what i'm going to do for college. And now after a while of having her sitting over my shoulder and getting annoyed when I would take control of the mouse, she let me go upstairs to look for something, in which i turne dup zero results. unfortunately, the good drawing mood I had is now gone.
Also now I'm stuck with the mood i get whenever I have to think about life out of the little bubble I have right now. Scared.
And i know that if I talk to my mom about this, she'll start giving me some crap speecha bout how I should be getting out more and dealing with my problems. Umm Mom? HELLO? You're the one who for YEARS, has told me to deal with the major social problems (which were the only problems I ever really had)in my life, by AVOIDING or IGNORING the people behind them.
...
And it's NOW that she wants me to think about life outsid eof the little bubble of security I've built up. Well sorry mom, when was that lesson in DEALING WITH THINGS YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO TEACH Me?
Better yet, how about you try and sit down with me, try NOT to make it your little corny-joke fest, and try talking to me in my native language? Teenager. Because right now I've have NO concept of how to do taxes, or how to shop right, or even how to actually TALK outside of text or one-on-one conversations. For years mom you've kept me at home by saying about how I've never been away from home for more than a week.
Well HERE'S a novel concept, LET ME STAY AWAY FROM HOME on my own for a few weeks and see how I do huh? Why the fuck didn't you try THAT OUT? Everytime I tried to bring it up you shot me down by saying I wasn't ready, and now the time has come for me to go out of this little nest, and guess what mommy bird? This fledgling doesn't know how the FUCK TO FUCKING FLY!!!
Does she expect me to be psychic or something?
Right now I seriously miss Rigger. I need someone to hug.
Odd thing one (is not so odd) I woke up with out the aid of an alarm and started to get ready for school when i realised. I DIDN'T HAVE SCHOOL.
Odd thing two: I think I'm getting the hang of using the computer to colorize piccies! YAY ME!
Odd thing three: Met the hawk that's been hanging around where I live on the paper route during butt-farking cold weather. I saw it, it saw me and just kind of stood there for a few moments, a feshly caught bird stillin it's talons. Then it flew off, not at all phased by me, right into the spruces near my house. after that I lost sight of it.
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End of stuff from yesterday
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Today's issues
I got an even better grasp on how to use the computer to colorize my pics through experimetning. yay.
I did a lot of fun piccies.
Just now mom came down to bug me about what i'm going to do for college. And now after a while of having her sitting over my shoulder and getting annoyed when I would take control of the mouse, she let me go upstairs to look for something, in which i turne dup zero results. unfortunately, the good drawing mood I had is now gone.
Also now I'm stuck with the mood i get whenever I have to think about life out of the little bubble I have right now. Scared.
And i know that if I talk to my mom about this, she'll start giving me some crap speecha bout how I should be getting out more and dealing with my problems. Umm Mom? HELLO? You're the one who for YEARS, has told me to deal with the major social problems (which were the only problems I ever really had)in my life, by AVOIDING or IGNORING the people behind them.
...
And it's NOW that she wants me to think about life outsid eof the little bubble of security I've built up. Well sorry mom, when was that lesson in DEALING WITH THINGS YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO TEACH Me?
Better yet, how about you try and sit down with me, try NOT to make it your little corny-joke fest, and try talking to me in my native language? Teenager. Because right now I've have NO concept of how to do taxes, or how to shop right, or even how to actually TALK outside of text or one-on-one conversations. For years mom you've kept me at home by saying about how I've never been away from home for more than a week.
Well HERE'S a novel concept, LET ME STAY AWAY FROM HOME on my own for a few weeks and see how I do huh? Why the fuck didn't you try THAT OUT? Everytime I tried to bring it up you shot me down by saying I wasn't ready, and now the time has come for me to go out of this little nest, and guess what mommy bird? This fledgling doesn't know how the FUCK TO FUCKING FLY!!!
Does she expect me to be psychic or something?
Right now I seriously miss Rigger. I need someone to hug.
